2009... By far the worst year in history. So many things are going wrong.

Last monday, I found out one of my best friends at McNair High School got killed. She was hit by a car. She was hit the Thursday of Halloween and died on November 1st.

Life has been hell at home. More fighting. One question for all of you.... do you think it's right to destroy a person's chance at having a good future? I thought not. -.- I got nominated for Summer Search by my World History teacher, Mr. Serene. It helps build self esteem and leadership skills. Plus it is great for college. If I got accepted into the program, then I would get to go backpacking (like camping) for a few weeks and maybe go to a different country for a few weeks, all doing charity work. My grandmother and a few other people are coming up with things telling me not to go and giving me excuses. I usually do what others want me to do, why can't I do this one thing for my future? I don't know anymore. Since they started fighting about the whole thing, I just took the packet (cause you're supposed to fill it out and write an essay about yourself) and told them I was going to throw it away. I probably will. They don't seem to care. They told me "Don't throw it away! We want to see it!" If they wanted to see it then they would have talked about it and not got into an argument about things that are completely stupid. I don't know what to do with this so called "family" I'm living with now.

Our Anime Club president is being a total jackass as well. Do you think it's right to assign a project to the entire club to prove that you're "worthy" enough to be in the club? It's due on Friday. I'm almost done. Latest I'll finish it will be Thursday. But if he doesn't straighten up his attitude, then people in there will probably do something about it.

I hate life so much right now. I feel like no one understands me. I feel so depressed. Anyways... sorry for all the ranting. I bet you probably zoned out right through the 3rd paragraph.. I don't blame you. I even hate listening to myself repeat things. Sorry for wasting your time. I know I'm a burden.

~ClenoRikuFan

p.s. had a good birthday. Happy birthday mi amiga.
and I hope your foot feels better.